Being loved...

Its such a beautiful feeling.....being in love....and something more beautiful is the feeling of being loved :)

I didn't expect love at first sight.....after all, ours was a typical arranged marriage.....we behaved like good obedient kids and tied the knot once our parents felt our match was the perfect one. At this stage in life, I wouldn't argue on that :)

I fell in love with him long before I even realised it. It didn't take much effort actually.
It always remained a question mark for me...........whether he loved me....or just liked me....or was still in the process of getting used to me! He was very loving, caring, and all the things that you would want your husband to be.......but the doubt kept knocking on the back of my mind....but does he love you yet???

I was of the thought the you should let love develop gradually.....because it is something which is felt deep within and not something which you can gain suddenly. Why, then, was I getting so impatient and unsure?? Wasn't it enough that I love him like crazy.....that he is there for me....for life....that he always makes sure that my life is comfortable? No. It just wasn't enough.

I needed to know.......just didn't know how to know. He does say the lovely "I love you"......after a lot of persuasion from my side :) But he has never been verbal about his feelings.......then how would I ever find out???
That kept bothering me until last night.........then I knew. The easiest place to look for it is in their eyes. I saw it in his eyes yesterday.........he loved me.....and I felt complete......his eyes spoke much more than he ever did about the love he feels for me....and it was a wonderful feeling.......the feeling of being loved....

Solitude

In the everyday grind, when was the last time you actaully cut urself out and lived in solitude for sometime? It feels great! Trust me. I did that today. I was speaking to people, making small talk, discussing work..............but my mind had switched off. It actually didn't switch on when I woke up this morning. I didn't want to think anything......I liked the empty feeling....I liked being in a state of self inflicted hibernation.

And now by the end of the day, I feel much more refreshed and happy. Maybe I have been too stressed out lately.......maybe I needed to break away from this world. I needed to be in a world of my own.......where appyling mind and logic was not allowed :)

Its important to do it once in a while, its a favour you do to yourself.