"Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great"

-Comte DeBussy-Rabutin

I am very very happy right now.....and wanted to record this happiness. Hence making a note of this in my blog. I want to capture this time.
Aug 15 - (A very very important day for our country as well)
Seeing you after a whole month (37 days exactly)......in the most unexpected way.....I really wanted to run to you and give you a tight hug - to check if you were real! I just couldn't believe my eyes - couldn't believe that it was you standing at my doorstep, giving the widest, loving smile :)
But I stood frozen.....in total disbelief....hadn't expected this at all. You have given me yet another beautiful surprise, which will remain as one of the moments I would like to keep forever.
How you manage to keep surprising me in the most unusual ways, I have no idea! And as I am writing this entry today.........I am suddenly at a loss of words.....I am unable to write about the happiness that I am feeling today (touch wood!). Just thanking all my lucky stars and God...........for having found you as my partner for life!

Online chatting

I had once been an addict to online chatting...........used to chat for hours at a stretch with my friends and cousins. I used to love to chat. I felt chat is one of the most wonderful creations of mankind! If my workplace did not permit chatting, I used to sulk and criticize the work culture. I felt it was my birth right to be able to chat at anytime, anywhere! It seemed such a blessing as it made this whole world so small........distances didn't matter anymore....we all seemed to be right next to each other in this cyber world. It brought people closer.

But only recently I have come to realize the other side of it as well. The not so good side. Chatting does bring people together........but at the same time, it creates an artificial sense of aloofness in you, that you feel you can actually type anything that comes to your mind, and not have to face the consequences directly, since the person with whom you are chatting with is not physically there with you. But words, being as powerful as they are............the pen is mightier than the sword!!! Once you have pressed the "Enter" key...........there is nothing you can do to reverse it.

In a face to face argument, how ever angry I am, I usually just avoid speaking till my temper cools down. That is the best thing to do I have realized, since my mind temporarily takes an unannounced vacation during an argument. I can never somehow think straight (logically) during a fight. So its best that I shut up during this phase.
But the false sense of power that chatting gives..........I end up talking my head out (which has proven disastrous more than once). At that moment everything feels right.....I feel I have made my point, I was right. I suddenly feel immune to the other person's reactions. But only when I go through it again, do I realize the harm done..........but "Enter" has been pressed.......nothing can be reversed........even a hundred sorries sometimes can't repair it. What in the earth was I thinking while typing all that??? No idea! It seemed so right at that time........why does it seem awfully wrong now? Its because I have come back to my senses.
But I ended up hurting the person I love the most........how I wish I could reverse that.......but one has to pay the price for one's stupidity. Stupidity of arguing without logic. Stupidity of failing to see the other person's point of view. Stupidity of failing to realize that the other person is human too (and not just a computer talking to u!). Stupidity of forgetting how much he loves me! Stupidity of arguing through online chat!!!!

Online chat - I don't like you anymore..........I think I am much better off speaking over the phone.