Goodbyes

I have said good byes before, to people really close to my heart. I knew I would see them again, I knew I would be in touch with them, I knew I would get on with my life just fine in a few days. But the thought of a goodbye itself, makes the whole moment so filled with sadness and grief. But I have said many of those goodbyes. So naturally, I felt this particular goodbye would be the same too......I would be a little sad, that's all.

But it wasn't the same. Then I realised the difference between him and the entire world. Of course, he was special, I knew that....but the extent of grief that was overwhelming me was something I had never experienced before. It exceeded any grief I had felt before while saying goodbye......I felt a part of me going away.....

I knew this moment was coming from a long time. I was the one who had decided to come home to my parents to have my baby. I was the one who chose to be pampered at home and leave him for a whole five months, all alone. I had made this choice. He wanted me to stay for another month atleast......but I got selfish and decided that I needed a lotttt of rest, so came home running to mommy dearest.

Why didn't I think of how difficult it would be to be away from him?? Why didn't I think of the pain I would go through after seeing him go? Why didn't I think of the endless hours I would spend just thinking of him and whether he was well? Why didn't I realise that he has become an inseparable part of my life.....how did I ever think I would manage without being with him for so many months.........every moment, everyday seems to go on for ever.....but I had made this choice.....so I shall carry on ....waiting...for my baby to come into this world....and then rejoin my jaan that I have left back home.

Just like that

I loved this quotation so much.............I just had to put it up here!

"I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. "

My fav song....

This one is for you Ramji......

"Its amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you dont say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
Theres a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me when ever I fall
You say it best..when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never define
Whats been said between your heart and mine

You say it best when you say nothing at all
You say it best when you say nothing at all..

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
Theres a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me when ever I fall
You say it best..when you say nothing at all"


................Alison Krauss (and more recently by Ronan Keating)