Have finally entered my final trimester of my pregnancy! It has begun to feel that i have been pregnant forever!! The bump has begun to make its presence felt........mainly by giving me sleepless nights with the fear that I may trample my baby with my weight if I am not careful with my sleeping posture. Trust me, sleep is one thing that we have to give up once u decide to have kids.....and this big sacrifice (I am a big big fan of sleep.....zzzzzzzz......even spending a couple of hours struggling to sleep is a huge sacrifice for me) starts from before the baby is even born!
Having slept only a few hours at night......coming in to work the next morning is another herculean task. You are still sleepy when you switch on your system in the morning........and the drowsiness keeps getting worse through the day. Your body refuses to co-operate with you......you are left feeling totally fatigued. Somehow I manage to drag myself through the day and slump on my bed the moment I reach home late evening.
But the day doesn't end there........my dear baby has to be fed as well.......something which you can never ever ignore. And being alone with your husband, and no other help at home suddenly seems so difficult to manage. How you wish your mom was there to pamper you and feed you on time....take care of all the nitty gritties of home care. But kya karen, I like to picture myself like this independent woman who can manage everything on her own. So at least to feed this false ego of mine, I carry on.....managing things on my own. After all, there are so many nuclear families around, and all women seem to be managing just fine.
And I know, I can do this too. So drag myself out of bed again.........make some dinner.......feed myself and my baby......and finally get back to bed......spend a few hours trying to sleep in the right posture.....and finally drown myself into deeepppp sleeepppppp.........zzzzzzzzzzzz